Okay, so where was I up to? Ah yes, I’ve planned and prepped and now I was ready to begin. My last meal before fasting was at 3pm on Friday. I made it a biggun! Very high fat and I enjoyed it thoroughly. That evening I went to a Kundalini Yoga workshop where we focused on our “Soul Purpose”. I thought this was the perfect way to start my vision fast as one of the reasons to carry out a vision fast/quest is to find your purpose in life.
The next day when I woke up my first thought was “I’ll just make breakfast”. Er, no I won’t. “I’ll just make lunch”. Nope not that either. It made me realise how much of my life revolves around food. I wasn’t even that hungry, it just seemed to be a go-to habit and a conditioning to eat at certain times.
I was all packed and ready to go but had another yoga workshop to attend before setting off. Getting ready to leave after the workshop I did just think “What the f*ck am I doing?” “Just go home, stay warm, eat some yummy food”. But I’ve got this far, I’m gonna do it. By the time I got to my spot I was happy I didn’t back out. It felt right being there.
I did the whole ritual thing on arrival. The Quest book gives all the details on how to do this. First I set up my medicine wheel (a protective circle made around my sacred spot). I collected stones (asking their permission to be moved and made into my medicine wheel) placing them in east, south, west and north corners. I then added a few more stones as well as twigs, feathers, berries, leaves and even a mushroom. I “washed” myself in sage and cleansed the circle. I only entered and exited from the east as that is the beginning of the wheel relating to the direction of sunrise. On entering the circle, I took time to centre myself, breathing in each direction and using visualisation to draw in energy.
I then set up my hammock and tarp and settled in for the night. I had felt slightly nervous before going, it’s funny the stories your mind can make up in your head. I just had to not listen to them and know that I was completely safe. It wasn’t the best nights sleep but I didn’t actually feel that tired to be honest. The moon was so bright too (it was the night before full moon) and was like someone had a light on in the trees. Which was amazing (I’m definitely a “look at the moon” kinda person)!
To be continued…..